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About the Author:

Rachel Gill is a social and behavioral sciences sophomore at Linfield College who plans to continue graduate studies in cognitive-behavioral and clinical psychology. She is also a mental health advocate/consumer diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Agoraphobia with Panic Disorder. She is in Dialectical Behavioral Therapy at Portland DBT, is without prescription medications, and hopes to create a more positive image of persons with mental disorders by sharing her story with the public and actively contributing to the advocacy efforts of Multnomah N.A.M.I and the Mental Health Association of Portland.

In addition to her scholarly goals and community involvement, Ms. Gill also records and produces original music under the name Pinki Tuscaderro on Rez Records, her do-it-yourself record label. It is only a Machine, her second LP CD is due for release on June 21, 2011 (the 1st day of summer), and will be available for download on iTunes and several other online music stores. Physical copies will be in local music stores or ordered direct by mail; e-mail for more information. Preview music at

About the Poems:

The following five poems are a sample of the author’s poetry chosen particularly for their relation to personal experiences with issues of mental health. The author aims to show others with and without mental disorders a creative means to self-validate and effectively cope with negative emotions/situations. The author would like to emphasize to readers that any political implications are more a side effect of the writing process than the author’s original intent.


Thank You Verity Much

DBT is for BPD except in MHO policy.

County seniority is not a requisite degree.

Staff, not doctors, decide treatments for me.

Multnomah Verity, please realize.

Unlicensed psychology can cause suicide.

My Window

I listen to soft lullabies of

Murmuring raindrops.

They collide incongruously with

harsh angles, surfaces.

Rhythm drops against panes and

beats my heart.

Avoiding Fear

I sleep faithfully wrapped

In shuttered rooms & dreams,

Where there are no throngs to face

Thoughts fold illusory content.

Mental Health Cares?

Research rats are not

Obliged to pay for

Psychiatric pretension or

Statistical display.

Drugs, Psycho, Therapy,


If mental health cares,

Where is the feeling?

Bed time hours,

Blinking eyes,

Dreams water.

Dehydrate minds.


One Comment

  1. I love reading this Rachel. You are such an inspiration and your amazing poetry really communicates so well. I am so glad you are on such a positive path. keep it up and I look forward to reading more. Love ya

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